A Paper that Decides your Future

                 
                         When you're a kid, I'm sure your parents will tell you to stop playing around and start studying for your final exams. Even though those exams isn't really your "final" exams, they would tell you that it'll be beneficial for your future. And now with my PMR results is just meant to be placed in a file where it's left untouched for more than 2 years already.

                         With my upcoming SPM results which I'll be claiming it tomorrow, it makes me wonder where did I put my UPSR results 5 years ago... (it's lost).

                          Tomorrow is basically the day where I'll exist to 2 planes based on the physics concept of "schrodinger's cat" where I'll be happy at the same time feeling despair. In other words, in one scenario I'll be jumping up and down with joy knowing that I've passed my SPM exams while on the other scenario would be me crying like a little bitch for failing my BM subject... I have no one to blame but me for wasting 2 years of my life on nothing but anime and games.

                           It really makes me wonder that if were to fail my SPM, why would I bother coming back to Jerantut, Pahang spending more than RM40 just for the trip. All for the sake of taking a piece of paper that will my give me different reactions based on how I looked at my grades. I mean I could have just stayed at home and use the computer to check my SPM results online without moving an inch of muscle to go anywhere. The results are literally at the tip of my fingers by tomorrow and yet I wasted the whole day taking different types of public transportation just to reach back here which is quite exhausting if you think about it -.-

                             Either way, I'm nervous and I know that time won't wait for me to calm the fuck down. Even if i do get good grades, I'm still going to cry in a happy way. But one way or the other, I'm still going to have tears flowing out of my eyes when the moment I see my SPM results. Of all the time I wasted just for this moment, funny that it ends up causing me to cry even though I never really cared about my future when I was still young. sigh, I guess times change. For all SPM leavers out there taking their results tomorrow, I wish you all good luck on your grades :)