Was it Tragic???

                         I've always wondered what will happen after I pass away. What would my family felt and what will everyone do after I die. There are a lot of theories suggesting that one would either go to heaven or hell after death, while some suggest it would either become nothingness or be reincarnated. This always baffles me when I've achieved something in life. Because every time when I accomplished something, I felt like I just moved forward, as if like something is dragging me towards the inevitable end. And I ignored it every time when it bugs me and just continue towards my next goal in life. All the way until now, I realized that there is no escaping the final destination. It took me this long to finally get it through my head that everyone will eventually die, some just really need a little help.
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                         A recent tragic has occur in the Chow's family, the passing of my father's father (my grandfather) has died on the 14th of January 2015, last Wednesday. It was a shocked when I heard the news from my father. Apparently it was during my first day enrollment into Taylor's college. After receiving the letter of acceptance into the school, I was so excited for a brief moment until when the news arrived, it crushed my happiness soul and turned it into something sorrowful...

                          I had to return to Pahang and attend the funeral of course. I was expecting a sad environment when I arrive, but for some reason it was nothing. When the moment I entered the house, everyone was chatting and not a single ounce of tears were seen by anyone. All the way until the memorial ceremony, only a few shed of tears were spared in my view. I'm not sure whether am I in a funeral or not after exposing myself to that surrounding.

                          Everyone had a good meal for dinner and the next day we were preparing ourselves to go to the crematorium by bus. It was a long journey around an hour and a half and when we reached there, we continue to pray and say our final words before sending him off into the crematory. Burning him would take some time, so the whole family decided to have a feast for lunch. (Again, no tears were seen). Some even share some laughter and everything seemed to be normal.

                           And just when we went back to collect it's ashes and bones, everyone started praying again and his six children (including my father) each had to choose a piece of its' bones and put it into a jar. And with that, everything was settle when we took the bus back home with another hour and a half journey. We arrived at a temple where we have to pray...... again... After some briefing it would seemed that the funeral is finally over.

                           I feel awkward when attending this funeral where no sadness is seen much. I'm not sure whether this always happen to all types of funeral or did I just watched too much movies where people cried when someone died. Either way, on my way back to KL it got me thinking. Will this happen to me as well when I died??? I'm not sure whether people are not suppose to share sadness when someone pass away, but I don't like it. I don't know why, but I just don't feel like I was in a funeral. All I know was that I was thankful for everything my grandfather has did for me and sad for what I could not repay the debt that I've owed to him. I kept thinking what if........... what if I was able to repay the things that I have owed him. What if I had spent more time talking to him... (I mean I lived so close to him for 2 years).

                            I don't want to regret the decisions that I've made, but sometimes I felt that I should at least repay the debt I owned to someone before it's too late. More or less, this is just a suggestion that I would like to share.

Your Troubles in Life will be Compensated.

                           Today was an unlucky day for me as well as a satisfying... I woke up and do my house chores as usual until around the afternoon, I decided to go out and eat my lunch. When I went out, I won't received any notifications on my phone since there's no wifi or mobile data in my phone.

                            Everything shocked me once I've arrived at Mc Donald's since we all know that it's one of the places with wifi. When I turned on my phone, I received a message from my boss terminating my job as a sales agent due to sufficient workers and that I am just not suitable to continue working in their company. Well, there goes my paycheck... They did state that I will be receiving my salary for the amount of time I've worked for them which in my calculations (definitely not above a thousand) quite little.

                            I don't know what am I suppose to do with my life after hearing that since I am currently jobless and god knows whether will I be able to enroll into college since my SPM examination results are still in the mist.

                           And after lunch, I was about to go drive around SS15 to check out some PSVita prices (planning to buy one with the money I've earned). and then suddenly BOOM, some indian bastard  hit the back of my car bumper while I was about to turn. Apparently he was using his phone while driving and just when he realized that some guy's (me) car has stopped in front of him, he decided not to compensate it and just drove away as like nothing happened. I guess he has been learning and mastering the skills of "Get the f**k out of there" situations for many years. If my back bumper dropped, I would have chased him to the ends of the earth. Too bad it didn't -_- (Really wanted to chase him though...)

                           So with me getting fired and a bastard hit my car, just as I was about to snap. I've arrived at Heavy Arm (awesome game shop, highly recommend to those who wants to buy their gaming equipment for a reasonable price. Check it out at https://www.facebook.com/Heavyarm412/timeline ). Anyhow, when I entered in and asked for their cheapest PSVita, they showed me an awesome bundle sales where you get A LOT of stuff just for buying a the PSVita bundle for only RM799. If you've seen the bundle set, you would not believe how cheap it is. And so, I've decided to make a reservation on it and buy it on February.

                            Just as I was about to leave, I saw the Blizzard games section where Starcraft 2: Heart of the Swarm was being sold for ONLY RM79!!! 0.0 Without hesitation, I immediately bought it and get a free 2015 calendar XD.

                                               
                               With this, my Starcraft 2 collection is complete (still waiting for Legacy of the Void lol). But with what I've seen for the PSVita price and what I've paid for getting Heart of the Swarm, I'm really happy that at least I did get what I've always wanted even though a lot of bad things ruined my life today.

                                 I guess you can say no matter what happens in life, good or bad. You'll always be compensated for the services you've provided in life. Now I'm off to destroy every Terrans with the power of the Swarm. Hope you guys (Malaysian students) enjoyed your first day of school XD and have fun.