Saturday, 6 December 2014
Don't Forget Who you are
I just realized that the world we lived in is cruel. Everything is systematic and no mercy is spared to anyone. Up until now, this world should have made me lose my sanity and resulted in me committing suicide. And yet here I am, still alive and healthy as always with a bright future ahead of me which will be awesome. Somehow I feel as if none of this nonsense would ever pop up in my head as I continue to live my life peacefully. You never knew something that is so good and real could be corrupted and infested so easily without much effort.
It took me exactly 17 years and 10 months for me to realize that a persons' sorrow can never be reviewed unless he/she gives you the permission to see it. When the moment you experienced it. You would actually felt relieved that you are not alone in this crazy world, but you might also felt sad due to the pain that that person was suffering. After knowing this, you might feel a void in your soul building up slowly. You had no idea how much pain a person could endure mentally until you have compared it with your own pain and make an approximation about it.
In order to stop the pain that one is enduring, one must keep a strong will of sanity in his/her mind. Here's the hard part, there are millions' of ways to prevent losing your mind but choosing it is very confusing. An incorrect cure could result in becoming insane, addiction to drugs or even committing suicide. If you forgot who you were or simply discarded the old you in order to gain a new personality, you will suffer the 'side effects' of the new version of you. Friends that you trusted the most and are dear to you could only help you SLOW IT DOWN, nothing more, nothing less. But 'true friends' are mostly the recommended cure in stopping your sanity from losing grip from your soul.
People like these will always be encountered everyday in your life until you passed away. If you could someone still keep your sanity after living on this type of world then I'll say one thing : Congratulations on NOT losing your sanity up until now. There are plenty of people out there that has their sanity lost/stolen. Even if the worst case scenario were to occur, You must and should always find a way to solve. If the cure is incorrect, then do it again and again..... and again. All the way until you get it right. Because nothing will happen if nothing is changed. So a word of advice for you all, try harder until you've got it.
Thursday, 4 December 2014
It's Finally Over.
SPM examinations ended on December 3rd with the last subject that i secretly took (English for Science and Technology). and everything in that moment of my life felt refreshed.i feel like i could start a new chapter in my life and make new friends once i go into college. there are also some changes in my current friends' lives after they finished in their SPM. some says they're going to work straight away without enrolling into college for a diploma/degree while others are planning to study overseas with the hopes of a scholarship.
A lot has definitely changed and i could not believe that after 11 years of studying (6 years of primary and 5 years of high school), now we are able to decide whether do we continue to study through college/university or go out into society and look for a job/career. every ones' mind probably have all their future planned out after christmas. i've been considering about entering INTI college with early enrollment on 12 of january 2015 with my trail SPM results. since i wasn't picked for PLKN (national service) and i have a standard passing grade on my SPM results, this gives me plenty of reason and time to enjoy my holidays until 11 of january and also near to the upcoming chinese new year on february. i think i should have enough fun with my life until then.
Some changes in life are also surprising and excited. Recently an old friend of mine back in SMKSJ in KL. DUCKY (if u can guess who that is XD) has finally opened a facebook account.... around few hours ago i think. she said with her SPM finished, her sister finally allows her to have a facebook account.... i had no idea what's wrong with her family but i'm glad she was able to explore a new world and with the help of a social network, i think she'll get used to the outside world soon enough. she also has plans for college and has already decided to be an accountant as her career. some of my friends has thoughts about becoming a musician while some just decided to become a card provider in a casino at Genting Highland...
I don't have the rights to tell other people on how to plan out their future. but sometimes i don't even know how to plan out my own future. it's kinda weird if u think about it. i mean i already finish my education years, its' about time i step out into the real world and learn how to survive. but for some reason i have a LITTLE bit of thoughts about everything staying the same as it was. of course time waits for no man, but imagine if u could have relived a moment in the time of ur life that u made a mistake and go back to that specific moment to change that mistake so that ur future may have turned out differently... even though that's impossible, but sometimes we have moments that made us think that maybe we could have done something in the past so that this wouldn't happened. but there's also the probability that if the past were to change, then the future might turn out to be worse than what we've expected it to be.
It's about time that we look into our future and start deciding wisely on how we should get there. it's not like we're gonna repeat the same mistake twice or anything. eventually, things will get better in our life than before and we won't miss out on that opportunity. and with that, look up and high onto our next road of adventure. it's going to be awesome!
A lot has definitely changed and i could not believe that after 11 years of studying (6 years of primary and 5 years of high school), now we are able to decide whether do we continue to study through college/university or go out into society and look for a job/career. every ones' mind probably have all their future planned out after christmas. i've been considering about entering INTI college with early enrollment on 12 of january 2015 with my trail SPM results. since i wasn't picked for PLKN (national service) and i have a standard passing grade on my SPM results, this gives me plenty of reason and time to enjoy my holidays until 11 of january and also near to the upcoming chinese new year on february. i think i should have enough fun with my life until then.
Some changes in life are also surprising and excited. Recently an old friend of mine back in SMKSJ in KL. DUCKY (if u can guess who that is XD) has finally opened a facebook account.... around few hours ago i think. she said with her SPM finished, her sister finally allows her to have a facebook account.... i had no idea what's wrong with her family but i'm glad she was able to explore a new world and with the help of a social network, i think she'll get used to the outside world soon enough. she also has plans for college and has already decided to be an accountant as her career. some of my friends has thoughts about becoming a musician while some just decided to become a card provider in a casino at Genting Highland...
I don't have the rights to tell other people on how to plan out their future. but sometimes i don't even know how to plan out my own future. it's kinda weird if u think about it. i mean i already finish my education years, its' about time i step out into the real world and learn how to survive. but for some reason i have a LITTLE bit of thoughts about everything staying the same as it was. of course time waits for no man, but imagine if u could have relived a moment in the time of ur life that u made a mistake and go back to that specific moment to change that mistake so that ur future may have turned out differently... even though that's impossible, but sometimes we have moments that made us think that maybe we could have done something in the past so that this wouldn't happened. but there's also the probability that if the past were to change, then the future might turn out to be worse than what we've expected it to be.
It's about time that we look into our future and start deciding wisely on how we should get there. it's not like we're gonna repeat the same mistake twice or anything. eventually, things will get better in our life than before and we won't miss out on that opportunity. and with that, look up and high onto our next road of adventure. it's going to be awesome!
Sunday, 30 November 2014
Happy December
It's the first night of December 2014 and what i am wasting the whole midnight watching 'The Social Network' while eating instant noodles..... in bed...........(i have to say, it is very relaxing). still couldn't figure it out what life is all about but i guess i'll have to see it eventually. currently thinking of getting a part-time job as an IT salesman..... nothing to fancy. moreover, i was relieved(hyper-excited) that i didn't get chosen for PLKN national service(HELL YEAH!!!, i am a well mannered boy lol). Unfortunately, most of my friends were get chosen so........ that's a little sad...
Anyhow, i was also a little concern with what college i should decide on enrolling in. i know it's not possible... but if there is a small percentage of chances, i would like to go to the same college with some of my friends. i kinda dun like to be stated as a freshmen. of course there is also the problem with my SPM results for i am not sure whether i could fulfill the passing requirements for enrolling into even a single college. if i can't, i will be considering about working in a casino at Genting Highland. i've heard from one of my friend here that said they pay a cardholder RM1500 monthly with hospitality and food included as well. and it gets better on every year that there will be a raise in salary annually... but if i can actually enroll into a college, then i'll work my way up from college to a proper job. anything else would be prioritize less and i would continue to dedicate most of my life to gaming....(mainly LOL).
I've also been considering about learning japanese language since i am an animefreak and i like japanese culture. i'm sure it will benefit me since it's a language to my communication collection. no harm done i'm sure. in the mean time, stay frosty :)
Anyhow, i was also a little concern with what college i should decide on enrolling in. i know it's not possible... but if there is a small percentage of chances, i would like to go to the same college with some of my friends. i kinda dun like to be stated as a freshmen. of course there is also the problem with my SPM results for i am not sure whether i could fulfill the passing requirements for enrolling into even a single college. if i can't, i will be considering about working in a casino at Genting Highland. i've heard from one of my friend here that said they pay a cardholder RM1500 monthly with hospitality and food included as well. and it gets better on every year that there will be a raise in salary annually... but if i can actually enroll into a college, then i'll work my way up from college to a proper job. anything else would be prioritize less and i would continue to dedicate most of my life to gaming....(mainly LOL).
I've also been considering about learning japanese language since i am an animefreak and i like japanese culture. i'm sure it will benefit me since it's a language to my communication collection. no harm done i'm sure. in the mean time, stay frosty :)
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